Asian Pride - NOT

I've had such a full on day today. Had to babysit for half the day. Nonetheless I'll still blog for you guys.

Well for as long as I can remember, I've had pride in my "Asianess".
Basically everything that is stereotypical to Asians.
Their chingy English, tiny eyes, bad driving skills, natural martial arts, how they eat rice & noodles & all that sort of stuff. I didn't mind it at all, I was proud of it.
I've always backed it all up, let the insults slide, stood proud of who I was.

Lately I've realised being Asian does have a few flaws.
If you have extremely Asian parents, white people are not very 'approved'. Like my parents would kinda seem to be against dating white girls & have this 'barrier' against them. It wasn't anything too bad, like I'd still be allowed to invite white friends over, but they'd make their culture sound so different & stuff.
Also, more or less the only sports a Asian suits really well are badminton, table tennis, & any martial arts. Some sports just don't go very well & 'cool' with Asians at all, such as snowboarding, surfing, & skateboarding.
One last thing, hardcore music is a no & no... It seems the only music accepted in Asian culture is all that 'Chinese-pop', j-pop, k-pop & etc. So not cool.

That's why I'm not so proud of being Asian anymore.
Recently I've had an urge that I wanna be a 'white-boy'.
I just want to experience a new culture. other than the one I've been in for the last few-teen years.

I'm not saying I'm not happy with who I am.
You know, I just kinda want a change & experience something new?

First of all, I really want to move to America when I grow up.
It seems sooooooo much more interesting than this little New Zealand I'm stuck in at the moment.
Living by myself in America will definitely 'taint' my Asianess, which I'm all goods with.
Second of all, I want a cool tattoo all over my arm just like those metal artists. It just seems really cool. I've also been a type of person obsessed with "aesthetics", so who not?
The list can go on, but one more reason, I really want to learn how to 'scream professionally'. I kinda want to composer & be lead vocals of a hardcore band. (Christian of course)

Yup. So I'm a complete disgrace to Asians. But it's allgood. I'm still Asian on the outside so it doesn't change a thing. I'm sure there's fellow Asians out there like me. But I'll see where God takes me. It's my desire to live in America one day, but it might not be His.

Oh also, I highly recommend you check out The Whosoevers.
I live streamed one of their events last night & it was just AMAZING.
Check them out here. thewhosoevers.com

That's it.
Godbless (: